I really like the quote "life is not about finding yourself its about creating yourself." And i do believe its true. The past few years I've set goals to "become the person I want to be." I think the hardest part about this year in Americorps was that i was starting to lose things thay are an integral part of who I am. I don't ride my bike, I don't do any taekwondo training, last round I only ate a burrito once! And I was living in a city with no trees or mountains (the geographical landscapes that I've decided are important to my life.) And by the end of the 8 weeks in Houston I was tired of it, and I couldn't wait to leave and just get away from my team and that whole round. Not because I didn't like them or the project (because i cherish my teammates, and the project was really interesting) but because I lost myself along the way. My identity came 2nd to the team identity. I was the team leader, and that was the sum of my existence. This round, in Arkansas, I'm recreating myself to be the person I want to be. This past weekend i had two goals: buy a bike, and eat a burrito. Mission Accomplished! Today I found a taekwondo school. Chad, the sign language interpreter we had for today over heard me mention that I did taekwondo, and told me about the school he teaches at. And so I went. And reclaimed a part of myself. It felt really great. I was helping a kid with his pattern that he's trying to learn, and by the end of it a bunch of the other kids had crowded around and we whispering that they thought I was pretty awesome. The instructors invited me back for the remaining month I'm in Arkansas. Yay!
My project is also Amazing! Today we moved rocks to improve the West Summit trail at Pinnacle Mountain State Park. Theres a great view, the work is hard, but makes me feel strong, and the day moves quickly. I've started trailrunning in the evenings, and Hopefully when the weather improves I'll be able to do some yoga outside (not enough space in the trailer to do anything more intense than bending over...and even thats tough).
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