Rejection

Friday I received the email saying that OB Minnesota has elected to hire more qualified applicants for the summer internships. I'm devastated. I've wanted to work for OB ever since I first heard of the organization three years ago. I've been planning on transitioning to this for nearly a year now. I've cleared my calendar and my obligations for May, and now it feels like my life is just ending and I've nothing lined up next. Being rejected from my dream job makes me feel like my life has lost all direction and momentum. I feel stagnated, and unable to pull myself out of this rut. After some research it seems like application deadlines for other locations, and similar organizations has passed, and I missed my opportunity. I'm trying to remain positive about my future. I can only foresee staying in Denver a little longer, staying with my job that has ceased to have meaning for me, and in an apartment I can't even unroll a yoga mat in. I'm trying to remember all the good elements of the life I've built here, and can continue to enjoy.